I have decided to write this blog throughout my day. I want to give readers a taste of what my day is like on a moment to moment basis.
so, let’s begin…

It is currently 8:38am. I am typically up at 3am on average. However, last night my new roommate moved in and I didn’t go to sleep until 12am. This has thrown my groove off for today.
“Beware the groove!”
I am about to make my second pot of coffee. Brb…

back

Sorry, I got lost in cheesecake and messenger. I usually spend a couple hours in the morning messaging with friends. It is currently 9:23 am and I am just now “talking” to them. Again, groove completely thrown off!
If it’s ok with you all, I’m going to bring you outside with me for a cig. Feel free to join me in a smoke at this point or just sit there and keep me company. Either way you are mine now…

Oooo…. duty calls….

Ha ha ha ha! Little did you know I took you all to the bathroom with me. I am literally sitting on the porcelain god, expelling what Can only described as toxic waste. Oh, the joys of IBS! Let that image sit with you for a moment while I do the doo.

A healthy dose of air freshener, and a hand wash later, we are outside and I am about to light a smoke. I have pretty much switched to vape but there are certain times that call for a real cigarette. I just partook in two of those times. My new roommate is still asleep. Imma be polite and not blare my 80’s music. Instead imma blare some, Screaming Jay Hawkings. (Side note: Screaming Jay had over 100 kids.)
That’s much better to wake up to than synth pop. Seriously, though I’m only listening to it at volume level 19 as apposed to level 30.
See… I’m a good roommate.

Ok, going to take a break from writing for awhile (a while?), and enjoy my coffee. May even throw a shower in there. Anyways…I’ll be back. ( I seriously hope you all read that last statement in an Arnold Schwarzenegger voice.) If you did you’re my kinda peoples. Be back later…

Back.

So, I took a shower, did my hair and makeup, and got dressed. I drank more coffee, then after that, I ran some errands. I noticed people were looking at my shirt, or maybe it was my cleaves, or both, but in any case my shirt is pretty dope. It’s one of the shirts I ordered while sleep shopping a while back. It’s got a pic of the Zodiac Killer on it and says, What’s your sign? The other one I ordered, that I can’t find now, was my favorite of the two. It had my ol pal Jeffery Dommer on it and said, I eat guys like you for breakfast. Excuse me while I laugh to myself for a second.
I also video chatted with my guy for a little bit, until he pissed me off. He is incredibly good at that as of late. It really is quite a skill. My hats off to you, babe if you are reading this. Nobody knows how to get me as incredibly upset as you do. I guess that means you understand me, or just don’t care.
But enough about that… back to my shirt.
I’m going to see if I can take a pic and insert it below. I’m still learning how to use this program so give me a sec…

Boom! Look what I did!
I’m actually quite impressed that I figured that out! I never cease to amaze myself.
Usually, the “amaze myself” part is at something really, really, incredibly, stupid I have said or done.
I run into walls constantly.
I forget that there is a chandelier over my bed and consistently hit it with the bed spread every time I make the bed. That is always followed with an, “Oh, shit!”.

My OCD has been getting the better of me recently. I spent almost 24hrs yesterday organizing my beads, and cleaning. The day before that I cleaned, and the day before that I cleaned. There are some things my OCD will not get me to do, though.
I have refused to do the dishes in these past few days of cleaning. Part of that is due to my fibromyalgia. Extended periods of water on my skin hurts me physically. I am absolutely serious about that.
I know, I know, you are thinking, “Why doesn’t she just use rubber gloves?”. Well, little Miss and Mr geniuses, the feel of rubber gloves produces a gag reflex in me. I can’t stand that feeling on my skin! It would be equivalent to nails on a chalk board.
See, you all just gagged a bit yourselves at that thought, didn’t ya?

I am attempting to take it easy today. My back is Fu@*ed after these past few days. You all noticed how I didn’t spell out that word? That was for Ann. Hi, Ann.
I have the mouth of a sailor, and I am unapologetic about it, but I can control who I use it around.
Back to my back; I have a herniated disc in my lumbar. I am in pain every day. Sometimes the pain is worse than others. I can not properly bend or reach because of it. That will all be “fixed” soon, though.
I will be getting an ablation on the nerves in my spine. That will either stop the pain or render my legs useless. Just being a smart ass about the leg thing. I’m sure these doctors know what they are doing. Right?!
What that means for me is I can once again do yoga and work in my flower garden. May not seem like much but to me it is.

Now that I know how to insert a picture, I would like to share with you all some of the jewelry I make.

I stuck to the neutral colors in those photos to create a theme, but I do some funky stuff, too.
Now I’m going to take this opportunity to do a shameless business promotion. My business name is Eternal Findings. I can custom make just about anything. I also work with the healing power of gemstones.
I am also an artist and photographer. I do believe I have mentioned that before.

I need to eat some of my fried pickles at this very moment. I’ll be back. 😉

Back

Just found out I’ll be spending Christmas alone.
I am now listening to Til Tuesday and wallowing in my misery.
Of course my brain is telling me it’s my fault. That I suck. That I’m stupid. That I deserve it.
It’s 5:07pm and I’m thinking about going to sleep. I honestly don’t see any reason to be awake anymore today.
Hopefully this doesn’t spawn another bad bought of depression. The last episode of depression lasted 2 months and I almost didn’t make it out. In fact, I just got out of it about a week ago.
This is the part where I use my go to line of, “It is what it is.”
That is fake apathy by the way. I really do care. I care too much.

This is the point where we part ways for the day.
Hope you all have a wonderful evening.
Talk at ya tomorrow.